love is pain

salam and hi guys. i'm still enjoying my precious holiday. ok, i wanna talk about love today. jarang kan i cerita pasal love life kat blog ni. yes, i am in love. but sadly, this is uncertain. confusing is the best way to explain my situation now. i'm the type who hard to fall in love with someone you see. it happens around 8 - 9 months ago when saya "ter"suka good friend of mine. weird but yeah. i like him. like after 5 years i stopped liking someone since the things with my 1st doesn't go very well. so, imagine. of course susah nak buang this feeling right. so with no harm, after a month liking him, 1 of my girlfriend helped me by telling him. yes, of course lah dia tak terus cakap nak kan. shocking a bit sebab seriously unexpected. so, to make it simple "malas nak cerita details kat sini", he asked me to wait and he still taknak any ikatan yg restrict both of us. im thinking that was fair enough. so, i wait wait and wait. sampai sekarang. 8 months. patience. that's my armor. langit tak selalunya cerah kan. we do message each other. until today i asked. i mean its fair for me to ask kan. dah 8 bulan, whether he still wants me to wait or not. yes, dia nak. tp sampai bila? i have no idea. he said he wants to bincang face to face with me pasal benda ni, tp kiteorang tak pernah keluar sama these 8 months. how to bincang la kan. takkan lah i nak ajak dia keluar. doesn't feel right kan? so finally, wait for it........ no it doesn't end. still tergantung gantung. how? sometimes, fikir balik it does hurt you know. it might not be that obvious, but.... entahlah. so, saya still tunggu. penantian memang satu penyeksaan. tiba2 saya rasa saya seorang yang penyabar. doakanlah kami berakhir dengan baik. whatever the end will be. ya allah, do give me strengh. amin...

mode : sad and confuse

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